Mothers Day
I can remember a time, when I wasn't sure if I would get to be a mother. After loosing two children to miscarriage I would often think, "Lord, what have I done wrong to deserve this"? Other people all around me having children and I would think, why do they have no problems, and I can't seem to keep a baby in my womb?? On a good day, I would bask in the peace of my Lord and Savior and trust him in knowing what was best for me and I guess that is how I got through the terrible experiences of loosing a child that was growing inside of me. Maybe God has something different or better in store for me, maybe now is not the right time..........................is wasn't.....................God knows and we have to trust. It wasn't his timing, it wasn't the right time. Lot's of tears later, here I am..... I have two beautiful girls, today I spend a lot of time and energy on wishing I could be home more, be at more school functions, be around more,