each day is new

My last blog was titled "Being let-down". I was reflecting on what I was feeling lately and how God works in our lives. Now I want to ask how do you embrace change. I kinda touched on it in the last blog. Do you realize that God is in control and everything is on his timing? Lately, for me, I have felt a peace. Even though I am not getting to do my practicum this past semester and it will put me 6 months later finishing my graduate degree, I feel lighter and less stressed. Why do I feel that way? I feel that way because I know that God has got something good in store for me. I know that God is in control and he is helping me, teaching me and guiding me and I am listening. This is a time for me to listen and I am trying to do just that. This quote made me think about my journey: "The only things we can keep are the things we freely give to God. What we try to keep for ourselves is just what we are sure to lose"-CSLewis That is exactly what I did, I gave...

Recently, I have been on a time crunch to find a preceptor to work with in the hospital. I have called places, hospitals, and people, people I work with, people I am acquainted with and people I barely know. It has been a struggle and I have received much rejection. Did I mention I had a time line to find this great person to work with and as time got closer, I got more stressed and worried, but then I began to wonder if God was trying to show me something in this whole process of strife that I was going through. Each time I received a rejection email a little piece of my heart was crying inside. I kept a strong and positive outlook, but do you ever just feel like you are crying on the inside when you are hoping for the good and you keep getting let down, it creates a loneliness inside no matter what the let down is. Why does it create a loneliness? Well I have pondered this lately as I have experienced a let down in my life recently. I can say when things in life do not go as we...

Have you ever read the little poem about broken dreams and how we are to turn them over to God and remove that burden from our souls? I think about that poem a lot, not that I have a lot of broken dreams per se, but I reflect a lot on what " I thought my life should have been" or what I have missed out on with my children. I think on those things sometimes and I have to give it over to God and not dwell on it. As children bring their broken toys With tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to God Because He was my friend. But then instead of leaving Him In peace to work alone, I hung around and tried to help With ways that were my own. At last I snatched them back and cried, “How could you be so slow” “My child,” He said, “What could I do? You never did let go.” - written by Robert J. Burdette I often wonder at what point does someone break? I have seen people I know,  have break downs and I wonder sometimes is it truly science and is there a e...

At Christmas we often think of Jesus and his birth. We celebrate it and relish on the fact of a Savior and redeemer for all mankind. Each time I read the Christmas Story something new is revealed to me. I love reading the Bible as something new can be revealed in the same story over and over, and that's how my God is amazing ! 10"  But the angel said to them, “ Do not be afraid; for behold, I bring you good news of great joy which will be for all the people;   11  for today in the city of David there has been born for you a  Savior, who is  [ a ] Christ  the Lord." Luke 2:10-11 Anyway, as I was reading the story and listening also to my husband's message this week on the birth of Jesus, I realized something that I had not really thought about before. I realized who God chose to deliver the message of Jesus' birth.  Well angels of course, but the angels did not deliver it to the whole world, which they could have if God wanted it that way, no they...

In the last couple of days I have been reminded how fragile life is and I wrote this poem...... Life is fleeting…..  Today your here, tomorrow gone.  A memory left, a family alone.  Hearts broken, peace be still  Dreams lost, hope unfilled.  A fight that was fought,  memories made,  Hope instilled Hope betrayed Life is fleeting,  then it’s gone…  Hold them close,  Hold them strong. Tomorrow is not promised  Today is here.. Life is short  Time is near A vapor some say Life today Here, then gone…  Vanishing before our eyes Like a song….  Strong, soft, weak  The time is near,  The time is now….  Life is fleeting  You wonder how… Where did it go  Why….  But life is fleeting  then gone Like a vapor, a song.. Time not promised. The present is here Love them now,  Hold them dear. Mary Lewis 11/14

Have you ever been hungry, alone, destitute? I am often reminded of the heart ache here in the US. While I think foreign missions is good and necessary. We, Americans have a huge mission field right here in the United States. Each time someone returns from a foreign mission they are often humbled by the experience and often they have a life-changing adventure during their trip. I often wonder if these people are the ones that are more fortunate and they have never been hungry here, or destitute here in these great United States. You look at the US and you think well we take care of our own. Our government does, but do they? They definitely aren't teaching people Jesus Christ is the only way... no, because our government is trying their hardest to get away from protestant religion even though it was founded on it. There are hungry kids every day, that stay hungry, there are girls on the street prostituting for drugs, money, food and love, where are we? We are in our cookie...

I was thinking this morning how grateful I am that God showed up for us last night. This morning, I wanted to shout out a Praise.... Praise God Paige's reaction was not worse, Praise God he showed up, Praise God we did not have to go to the hospital. Praise God !!!!  Paige ingested some Peanut sauce unknown to herself or me, then she told me her throat felt funny and then the night began. It was quite trying for me her mother to watch as her little body decided if it was gonna fight or shut down. It began with her spitting, spitting up mucous as the histamines released in her body and noticed that there was poison within. She said she was fine and refused to let me poke her with the Epi -pen as she said no mom I am fine, I only need that if I am wheezing... hmm we will see. Well it was men's meeting night at our house, so us girls go on our usual girls night, out to find something to do for 2 hours while they meet. As we are in the Costume store, she says I don...