each day is new

So not my normal blog, but thought I would like to share on this thought I have been pondering. Everyone likes a fast walker. ... You know that person who always looks busy, the nurse that is focused constantly running up and down the halls to patients rooms like she is on a mission. The co-worker that zips around with high energy and a purpose, the fast one that is always busy. The boss certainly does... like the ones who at least look busy, right? Well I just need to speak up for those of us who don't always "LOOK" busy.... we still work and we still can be busy, we just do things differently than those "fast ones". When I worked in public health we did these personality tests and each personality type had a color.  It was amazing how pretty accurate they were and how when you knew someone was a green, chances are they are an extrovert, and a red is a bottom line type person, and me who was a blue was a mellow, laid back, thinker type who may look like...

In Matthew 11:28 it reads"take my yoke upon you". Have you ever really thought about what a yoke is? Well I got informed a little more yesterday and began to ponder on this a bit as I thought about this yoke that we are to wear. A yoke is a contraption farmers use to plow the fields. It holds two oxen one more experienced and one not so experienced,  the older animal will know where to go, what to do and how to get it done, the younger will follow suit.    The farmers would put an experienced oxen in one yoke and the less experienced in the other and the experienced one would lead the latter.  So most likely this is the analogy here, that he is telling us to come put on the yoke beside him and he will teach us. Will it be easy, no, will it be all roses and rainbows, no, but he does promise his yoke is easy and his burden is light. So when we are with him, he helps us, he will guide us and take on some of the burdens of life that we struggle with. It does say his...

I can remember as a child I did not understand freedom. I did not understand the price that was paid, wars that were fought, the struggle, the strife, the pain America suffered to be established. 1776 seems like long ago, but once you study a history lesson and learn about other countries, governments and kingdoms that have been formed, 239 years is not very long. I fear with all that is going on in the United States right now, what will happen to us, but I am thankful for the freedom that I have right now. I am thankful for the founding fathers who desired freedom.  Though this country was founded on God and the Bible, we are far from it now and that is what scares me, because what we were founded upon is going away, will the country last? You see in leadership you have to have vision and our founding father's vision is slightly skewed now days, so what will become of America. Look at the Children of Israel,once the few made it to the promise land, one generation past and they ...

The view from my window .... Have you had that moment driving down the road or walking even and you have to take a double take? You know when you're not sure if you think you saw what you think you saw? Well, I have that  a lot. While I have lived in several different places, even San Francisco, I am constantly in awe as I look around me and see the crazy here in Florida. I don't mean just crazy people, which is quite the case here. I mean crazy dress, crazy action, crazy drivers, crazy items just left on the street. Sometimes I feel as if I have more culture shock here in Florida than I ever did in California. Go figure.... Honestly though, the view is quite sad. I see hundreds of people in nice cars each day in a rat race on the interstate,  running to make that next dollar and be successful as the world defines success. I see sad faces, tears and hurt as they go, they look they try but they never find what they are looking for, just a journey of searching. I see...

My last blog was titled "Being let-down". I was reflecting on what I was feeling lately and how God works in our lives. Now I want to ask how do you embrace change. I kinda touched on it in the last blog. Do you realize that God is in control and everything is on his timing? Lately, for me, I have felt a peace. Even though I am not getting to do my practicum this past semester and it will put me 6 months later finishing my graduate degree, I feel lighter and less stressed. Why do I feel that way? I feel that way because I know that God has got something good in store for me. I know that God is in control and he is helping me, teaching me and guiding me and I am listening. This is a time for me to listen and I am trying to do just that. This quote made me think about my journey: "The only things we can keep are the things we freely give to God. What we try to keep for ourselves is just what we are sure to lose"-CSLewis That is exactly what I did, I gave...

Recently, I have been on a time crunch to find a preceptor to work with in the hospital. I have called places, hospitals, and people, people I work with, people I am acquainted with and people I barely know. It has been a struggle and I have received much rejection. Did I mention I had a time line to find this great person to work with and as time got closer, I got more stressed and worried, but then I began to wonder if God was trying to show me something in this whole process of strife that I was going through. Each time I received a rejection email a little piece of my heart was crying inside. I kept a strong and positive outlook, but do you ever just feel like you are crying on the inside when you are hoping for the good and you keep getting let down, it creates a loneliness inside no matter what the let down is. Why does it create a loneliness? Well I have pondered this lately as I have experienced a let down in my life recently. I can say when things in life do not go as we...

Have you ever read the little poem about broken dreams and how we are to turn them over to God and remove that burden from our souls? I think about that poem a lot, not that I have a lot of broken dreams per se, but I reflect a lot on what " I thought my life should have been" or what I have missed out on with my children. I think on those things sometimes and I have to give it over to God and not dwell on it. As children bring their broken toys With tears for us to mend, I brought my broken dreams to God Because He was my friend. But then instead of leaving Him In peace to work alone, I hung around and tried to help With ways that were my own. At last I snatched them back and cried, “How could you be so slow” “My child,” He said, “What could I do? You never did let go.” - written by Robert J. Burdette I often wonder at what point does someone break? I have seen people I know,  have break downs and I wonder sometimes is it truly science and is there a e...